THE FAT SUIT
I found a picture of the beautiful Kate Walsh in a fat suit. She's never actually been a fat girl but "she played one on tv". I on the other hand was a fat girl in real life...
Last night I was looking through pictures trying to decide what I would write about for my Monday Healthy Living Blog. I said, "ok holy Spirit, lead me to what you want me to share". As I looked through these pictures of the early years of my marriage and the "having children years", I started to get pissed. I'm not play'n. I threw pictures down in front of my husband of me at age 23, and 25 totally fat and giving birth. My hair was stupid and my clothes were ridiculous. Half the time during my fat suit years I was wearing HIS CLOTHES! It was all I could fit in and it was all we could afford. I yelled at my husband ( as he sat at his computer paying no attention to my ranting) and said, "WHY!? WHY ME? Why did I have to experience this? Why couldn't I have just NOT had to go through that. It's not at all how I thought life would be for me"!!!! I had all these memories that flooded my head about how I felt and what I thought back then. I hated myself, hated the way I felt everyday. I hated the fact that I was so exhausted and cranky towards my children. Ya, some of it had to do with lack of character and immaturity. BUT a lot of it had to do with not knowing who I was. I would look in the mirror and catch myself off guard, "WHOTHEHECKISTHAT"?! oh....ya.....it's me. I always felt like I was wearing a fat suit. I didn't identify with this body. It felt so separate from me...but it was me?.......
I know some people will never relate because they have never struggled with weight, praise God you didn't. We all have our journey. This was mine. The Holy Spirit quickly reminded me that I have a purpose and a destiny to help people unzip those fat suits and step out of them. I sit here next to my husband again, typing this blog as a lump develops in my throat, my nose starts to tingle with snot, my eyes well up, tears streaming down my cheeks and Zavier (the baby) screams in my ear while I remember how God took my situation and turned it around so that I can help others experience life through different eyes. I can help others get healthy so that they don't have to even go through the fat suit years. I thank God for the heart of compassion that he has given me. I think quite possibly I couldn't have the heart I have unless I overcame the fat suit. I always post my video journey because I have to share what the Lord has brought me through and because I know there are people that he has specifically called me to help. If you are a little or a lot overweight, under weight or you are just tired and need more energy...I have been CALLED by God to help change your life. I feel better than ever at age 37 than I did in this picture at age 25 and I'm destined to help others feel this way too!
Unfortunately I didn't have Advocare in my life from the beginning as you will see in my video. Now that I have for 6 years, this is what I take currently and what I start people on, along with a healthy eating plan to maximize results.
My Website
My Website
- Spark
- Herbal Cleanse (every 90 days)
- MNS MAX E
- Meal Replacement Shakes
- Catalyst
- Breakfast Bars
